"Let whatever you do today be enough. Let go of the judgement you have about what you should be or could be doing, and today, allow yourself to simply be. Comparing yourself and your journey may be habitual, but it gets you no where. It makes you feel worse and it keeps you stuck. So stop fixating on where everyone else is, and start giving yourself permission to be exactly who you are..."
I came upon this quote today and it really resonated with me (More of the quote to follow). I find myself often times comparing myself to others. The comparison goes beyond just the gym to me at work as well, but the focus of this post is my comparison of myself to others in the gym: thinking I am not strong enough, that my gymnastics are lacking, or that I should be doing more.
It is easy to get caught up in what everyone else is doing and to forget exactly what you are doing. I am sure there are a few people in my gym will think I am crazy saying this, but I am constantly trying to keep up with someone. Each person in my gym has their strengths, wether it be lifting, gymnastics, engine, or something else, and I feel like I don't shine in any of those.
Overall I am average at all of them and sometimes I find myself psyching myself out before we even start something. This is definitely a weakness and something I have been working hard on. I used to total psych myself out mentally before a workout. Thinking of how everyone else was going to do during it and how I was going to fail at it. I have started getting better at focusing on myself and trying to figure out where I can excel and figuring out how I am going to work through the really tough parts for myself.
In all honesty, it shouldn't matter how I do in comparison to anyone else. I do CrossFit for myself and for the joy I get out of it. I have enough things to worry about in life and if I constantly compare myself to others it just makes me go batty. So, I have been trying to take a step backwards and just do my best consistently. Figuring out how I can excel with the strengths God has given me and work upon those.
I have been working on this for the past few months and feel like it is starting to pay off. I competed at an individual competition recently, The Beast of the Metro East, and placed first in the RX girls! Overall, I kept a very level head, except for one workout and had a blast competing. I noticed when I didn't worry about others and focused on my strategy for how I was going to excel I did great and had fun. I am trying to continue carrying this attitude forward, in all aspects of life, because it keeps me in my happy place. If I keep worrying about what I can control, myself, and stop worrying about what others are doing, I will be in a good place. So here is to a healthy focus on myself and a decreased comparison of myself to others.
----The end of the quote above---
"Quiet the voice telling you to do more and be more, and trust that in this moment, who you are, where you are at, and what you are doing is enough. You will get to where you need to be in your own time. Until then, breathe. Breathe and be patient with yourself and your process. You are doing the best you can to cope and survive amid your struggles, and that's all you can ask of yourself. It's enough. You are enough." - Daniell Koepke
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